Another baby.

I have to admit- its been a while. There are quite a few things to share, apart from the huge graduation/final exams part of course. Nevertheless I want to tell you about the most exciting thing first:

A few weeks ago, I got a new baby. Well not that I was pregnant or have got a puppy or anything but I got inked again!

 My favourite tattoo artist draw me this beauty and I am so happy with it. It looks proper good and is healing so well :)

This picture is taken the very first monring I got it done and am still half asleep on it *g*

What do you think? Do you judge people that have tattoos or piercings?

xoxo Min

Graduation!

OMG I can't believe it but I'm almost through with my final exams! One more to go tomorrow and then I am finished. Cannot believe it yet. Still want to share my happiness.

xx Min

Shopupdate!

Finally I updated my shop and got new stuff in,
please check it out!

Wiesnkinder Shop!

 

February.Carneval.Portugal.

Carneval.

One word.

For me it is a time where I avoid going out of my house, am trying to hide somewhere far far away from all these crazy people all going crazy and dressing up and getting drunk. This year I tried to hide in Portugal as I was visiting my Love there, but the hiding part didn't quite work out. How was I supposed to know that they are as crazy about it as the germans are?

I wished I could have ignored it but my Love found it fun to celebrate it although he knew what a torture it would be for me. Still I joined him and his friends as I didn't want to stay inside on my own.

Here is prove of me actually partying on Carnival.

And no, I wasn't dressed up, and yes, I was the only one not being dressed up and having extreme fun there.

My first tattoo!

Tattoos are something special. Something interesting. Sometimes people use it to get attention, sometimes people need to show themselves they can do it and sometimes you just want to express how you feel so you can remember how this feeling felt like when time passed by and you lost alot of memories.
For me a tattoo is a display of feelings, impressions and if I could do them myself my body would already be lost under all that colour.


So  I went to the tattoo studio to get me my first tattoo.

I love it and I cannot stop staring at it. Sometimes I forget that I got it, as it doesn't hurt, and when I look down on my arm there it is and I get so happy : ) 

This is something I was planning on getting for ages actually. And so I went to the tattoo studio electric circus -classic tattooing and got it done. Actually I just went in to ask for a date and a price, but secretly wished I could get it right then, and - as destiny wanted it to - Erkan Keser, the tattooist, offered me to get it done that day. (!)
I couldn't believe my secret plans and dreams actually came true!! Of course I said yes, and just (a bit more than) an hour later I found myself on a tattoo chair waiting to get my first tattoo done : ) I still can't believe it, it makes me so incredibly happy. 

I am so thankful for this, it really made me feel alot better, also alot better in reference to my upcoming exams. I feel more relaxed and confident about them..

So what do you think about tattoos?

Old things new things

The first year just started and I am already behind!
At the very first day of 2012 I have made a list, what I want to do the first week of the new year. Unfortunately I couldn't finish both pages of it and have still got quite alot to do and work on. 

This year I will get new things in my shop, which I already finished last year but couldn't get a minute to actually take pictures and upload them.

So one of the first things to do next week will be taking alot of pictures!

Also, today is the last day of my winter holidays and so I have to go back to school tomorrow. Not a bad thing, as I will be finished in 6 (!!) months, what I can't realize yet as I have been in that school for so many years now.

Because of my graduation I have got a few exams next week and also I will get back some of my results from last year. I don't know if I should be excited or just nervous about it. So I just think about all the good resolutions I have got for this year. Also I am building up future pictures in my head lately, and inspired by bloggers like 'skunkboy creatures' Katie and 'a beautiful mess' Elsie, I collected some ideas in my little scrapbook how to decorate my very first own place. And I can't wait to share all these little things with everyone!

So more next week.. until then 

xoxo Min

Oh my, oh my, 21 :)

Today is a very special day. It is my love's 21th birthday! 

 

Sadly I can't spent this day with him because he is in another country by now.

I know this funny young old sport for quite a while now, a few years we had to get to know each other, get to love each other in so many ways. Over and over again we have had countries between us, the only time we got to see each other, apart from web cam chats, has been a week once in a while. Recently my love came over to visit me, for the very first time, as only I have visited him until then. He stayed for quite a while and we could live together for a little while, before life took him away and up in the air, to travel to somewhere to establish his own home.

I hope that he will find what he is looking for and that he can enjoy his life as much as he deserves it. 

 

You are my family, as much as I am yours.

Happy Birthday, my Love!         I love you xxx

A new beginning

A new beginning in 2012. A very new beginning.

My love and me are seperated again, countries between us.

how much can you miss someone?

I have had alot time to find it out last year and it seems as if I have got to experienceit this year again.

This year at the very first day of 2012 my Love took his flight to Portugal. We spent the last night of the year together and the first morning of the new one. Although he is two countries away, we are hoping that it won't do anything bad but give us time and space to develop ourselves and improve our lifes before we live together again. For me that means I'll finish my school, for him that means owning his place, living.

This new year is a year for everyone himself, that means I have got time and space to do all the things I want and have to do, that means I will see my love through web cams and I will listen to his voice through the phone, that means I will stay up until late to finish the paperwork that is due to the next day, that means I will meet my friends and go out with my sisters, that means I am on my own to experience how LIFE should be.

Still I am wishing for him to visit me the next holidays, so I won't have to wait until my prom to see him again. Or maybe I'll have to take a plane and travel around europe myself, we'll see.

But overall I am looking optimistic on this new year, as it is a chance for everyone to make it a better one than last year.

Last year I found a home. I found a love. I found help. 

And next year I'll find myself.

Hello 2012!

xoxo Min

Merry late christmas!

Christmas review :)

secret love: snow globes

this christmas -for once- I had a really special and nice one. I have spent my christmas days with my lovely sister, her husband and their two little kids, and of course with my love.

This christmas brought alot of suprising changes. Not necessarily good ones but changes at least. 

My love, who came to share his daily life with me here in Germany until my graduation, decided that he needs something else at the moment -Portugal. At first there was only a week trip to Portugal planned but this changed into him staying in his homeland as he needs to develop himself on his own.

My sister made me a few lovely surprises aswell, every day something special. One day it was the christmas cookies baking, the next day a little book with drawings of crochet snowflakes and some glittery silver yarn and white yarn aswell, then a pair of lovely handmade sleeping socks, which I am going to wear with my new pocahontas-boots instead of sleeping in them ;) , and another day a lovely little selfmade case for my new ordered crochet hooks! I was more than surprised by all these little cute gifts and could hardly believe it. On top I have got a pair of adorable earrings from her very own shop, and a unique blue and white hair clip :)

seen on en.dawanda.com/shop/laviniastern

Something finished- Shop Post

Its been a while..

I have had some important exams and the countdown is down to 3 months until final exams and graduation.

But it's not just that, what I got finished these days, but also -finally- get my dawanda-shop started!

Here a few pictures of my new cute felt brooches :)

have a look at my new started shop on http://en.dawanda.com/shop/wiesnkinder 

and let me know what you think about it!

xoxo Min

Six make a family

Someone very special  recently joined our lovely family of five.



While my trip to the Isle of Wight this summer, my life got a slight push into a direction I didn't think of before.

Some people came into my life, others left, some doors opened others closed.

It was a week, that changed everything. 






 
My love joined our family the last week of october and now we are going to experience what it is like to live together, spending every free minute with each other, caring for each other and being able to be there for each other.


A huge contrast to how it was before, for a month and a half, countries seperated us, made it hard to be there for each other, to share our happiness and sadness, our love and fears.

Now we are sharing one room, spending every free minute with each other as we missed to be 'us' so much.

I have to learn how to deal with this closeness first, as I was left alone for many years and lived on my own, without a person caring for me let alone be there for me.

But its a nice thing to learn to deal with, its an amazingly scary feeling I enjoy every minute of it.

My life turns out to change into a direction I can actually see a future in.

things I'm loving lately

..sitting inside with a hot chocolate and marshmallows while the rain is drumming on the window, 

..thinking about how soon it will be dark in the morning 

 ..when I have to get up and walk to school in the darkness, come home and it's already dark. 

 Only see the sun when I look outside the window during class 

 ..winter is coming, and I can't wait for it. 

Of course it will be cold, as always, and here it gets colder year to year, 

..but this winter I got someone special to warm me up on the cold days of this year.

My Love just moved here to Germany to spend the last few months until I graduate here with me instead of waiting in England for me.

We decided this more spontaneously than organized and thought through but I am more than happy with this turn of life. 

Its one of the best decisions made by people I care.

because I love you :)

It's not the face you make when you are embarrassed, it's not the sound you make when you're surprised, it's not the laugh you give when you try to hide something, it's just the look in your eyes when you look at me, and I can see the exact feeling inside of me reflecting in your eyes and in your soul. And it makes me feel so close to you.

You are more than I deserve.

You saved my soul, you rescued me for so many times, and you came here to me to make me feel safe and to take care of me.

You are more than I deserve.

It's the face you make when you are embarrassed, its the sound you make when you are surprised, its the laugh you give when you try to hide something and its the look in your eyes when you look at me that makes me fall in love with you over and over again, 

I love you more than I can describe.

Exams Week 1.3

Horaay almost done :) My english exam went quite well, I didn't really have my heart in it but I should have done good enough to get better results than a C. Only one more exam to go! It's Maths though..
But well how could I be more relieved when its over and have a wonderful week off if not with the last exam being the hardest? Just don't forget to keep your fingers crossed! 

xx Min

Bazar Nov '11 or 'joining in with Mrs. H '

Making the waldorf dolls for the Bazar at my school was alot of  fun..


there were weird moments,


aswell as boring ones,


but in the end I made some beautiful little dolls to love :)


It makes me happy to know that these little ones are going to make other little ones really happy.

They'll be their treasures, their loves,

it is an incredibly amazing feeling to give someone something so important for this person,

that nothing can replace.

Children can love with every part of their heart, there is no barrier there is nothing that would make them think someone or something does not deserve it

they give their love without expecting anything in return than acceptance and attention

One can learn so much of a child playing with its doll, no one else could teach.

I made some Wiesn-Kids, I love them to bits, there are two Madl's and two Bub'n, but see yourself ..

 I will post some better pictures the minute I took some! 

xoxo Min

Exams Week 1.2

Tuesday: History exam - check!

I wasn't as nervous as I thought I would be, but during the exam I often felt like I would loose it, as if I couldn't finish it. I felt like I had to give up, weird isn't it?
But I put myself together and have done 10 pages full of intelligent talking about the german empire, the first world war, and the weimar republic - not one nice thing to talk about but hey, now it's over! :)

Lets see what tomorrow will bring.. hopefully a good day and an easy english exam. Fingers still crossed.

xx Min

Bella update

 its been a while but I finally managed to  take some pictures of Bella's finished hat :)

                        

doesn't she look happy? :)

xoxo Min

Exams Week 1.1

Monday: German exam - check!

Puh, that was some work. On sunday I planned on going to bed early to get some more sleep than the now usual 5 h that are far away from enough but as always when I have some big exams I couldn't sleep. So I started thinking. Bad thing, really bad thing. I started imagining what could happen during the exams. 
I don't want to share these thoughts with you, as I don't want to make you nervous about your upcoming exams but just that much: it made me freak out. 
When I finally woke up today I haven't even had 5 hours of sleep. I felt awful and was soo nervous. Now that I had my first exam I am a bit more relaxed but I think tomorrow morning will be the same as today.

Now I have to wait for about 2 weeks until I get my results, I wish for at least one more point than I got in the last one.

One little [Book Report]

A little book report on my new favourite book  :)

This book, although having a really cool cover, first didn't really convice me to read it but as I haven't had any new books and it sounded like a cute little story I bought it.  As I got the package with the post I was -as always- really excited and started reading it immediatly. And after having it with me on my trip to England this summer I deeply fell in love with the life story of little Oskar, trying to cope with the passing of his dad and discovering a little big secret.
The end of the story is so really truly as in life that I am totally convinced putting it on my list of my favourite books.
It made me cry, laugh and think alot about what (my) life is really about, it shows you how a little one sees life totally different to adults and how hard some things are, especially for the little ones, who sometimes understand more about it than their parents.
This is what amazon says:

Nine-year-old Oskar Schell is an inventor, amateur entomologist, Francophile, letter writer, pacifist, natural historian, percussionist, romantic, Great Explorer, jeweller, detective, vegan, and collector of butterflies.

When his father is killed in the September 11th attacks on the World Trade Centre, Oskar sets out to solve the mystery of a key he disovers in his father's closet. It is a search which leads him into the lives of strangers, through the five boroughs of New York, into history, to the bombings of Dresden and Hiroshima, and on an inward journey which brings him ever closer to some kind of peace.

If you think it sounds worth reading, you can buy it here ! Enjoy and tell me what you think about it, did you fell in love as much as I did?










--After this great experience I have got my second Jonathan Safran Foer book called Everything is illuminated ..I will let you know what I think about this one as soon as I read it, read more on my next [Book Report]

Blogging for confidence

I recently stumbled over a blogger and her awesome idea of blogging for confidence and as I thought its a really brave thing to work out I planned on joining in!

I used to be a really shy and silent girl in public. I wasn't even able to ask a random person for the time when I was 14! But not that I've grown up (at least a bit) I got better at it, although there is much I could challenge myself with. 

I think I might change the idea somehow a bit but still keep on that blogging for confidence thing so I don't give false impressions of the idea of one sheepish girl.

If you feel like you could use some more confidence and want to gain it by challenging yourself feel free to grab a button, join in and follow the other blogger's for more confidence :)

Exams-Week!

So next week is exams-week and I am proper nervous! I know, it isn't hard to believe ;)
Plans are to study this weekend, as I have alot of plans for this week and I didn't do alot last week apart from studying and doing homework so I think I deserve to do something this week that is FUN. I am going to see a friend on friday, going to my kickboxing workout on thursday and to the course at my school on wednesday. Well actually it already is wednesday, as it is after midnight but I consider it tuesday as I am still awake and not already awake.

I am going to have 4 exams next week: 

- Monday: German exam (Michael Kohlhaas -again-) 

- Tuesday: History exam (First World War and the Weimar Republic)

- Wednesday: English exam (colonial and post colonial short stories)

 and the worst thing of all

- Thursday: Maths exam :(







So I'll keep you updated but please keep your fingers crossed until next week is over thanks in advance! :)

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Michael Kohlhaas Part II

 Michael Kohlhaas Part II

So I got my results today.

It isn't the best exam I've ever had, but the result is acceptable.. 

My first exam this year and I got 10 points, that's a B, so its good.

The best result achieved was 12 points (out of 15 possible points) and the average was 8 just for comparison.

Next monday will be the second german exam on Michael Kohlhaas so fingers crossed that I'll get more than 10 points on that one :)

New haircut! -Blogging for Confidence my first try

I finally decided that it was time for a change.

So I got a new haircut. My sister did it and I think she's done it well :)

Shorter, fringe and maybe I'm gonna get it darker aswell.  

But see yourself..

(I have really dark hair but a bit darker would be possible as it lightened up during last summer)

The only stupid thing is that we didn't realize I usually wear glasses, so it looks kind of weird ..

but I think we just have to get used to it, or what do you think?

don't hesitate to tell me what you think about it :) 

Bella :)

This is for my little sister Bella.




Bella is obsessed with wine-coloured things atm, so she wants to have EVERYTHING wine-coloured, the new chucks, her jacket, bag, socks, cap, scarf, everything

She asked me to knit her a soft-alpaca cap for the cold days to come, the style how its going to look is called  NORWEGER MÜTZE in german ;)


I tried my best, and thats what I could manage to do ..

( I look awfully tired, I know, comes from studying in the night instead of sleeping)

after this, I had to buy more wool, as the wool I bought wasn't enough --I probably just have an enormous head.


Gonna post the finished one as soon as possible!

Hello ABI

working on my first 15 points..

(work in progress)

..and the finished one :)

I had to draw a map for my geo class and as all my team-mates were ill, I had to do it all by myself.
 It took me around 4 hours to finish it, but I like the result, and hopefully my teacher will too !


Wish me luck, that I get at least 12 points for it (just to know: 15 points are best, below 10 I would be really disappointed)

So, I haven't got alot sleep last night but at least my team and me had an awesome map for our presentation ;)

Impressions

I had this dream. It seemed so real.

It was about me, finding a family. A home.

I had a little sister, she loved me for who I am. I had a room, for myself, with no one having to share it with. Just a room for myself.

There were grandparents, who had a present for me. They gave me 10 pairs of socks. And a scarf. They hugged me and made me lunch. Let me choose what I wanted, made me feel home.

I had this dream, where I had a home.

A house, just big enough to have room for everyone. A house full of love and always open doors. They made me feel. Just feel. I didnt know I actually could feel anything.
I experienced feelings I didn't know they even existed.

I fell in love.

It broke my heart. I couldn't sleep, the last two nights. Before I woke up. I had this feeling, that something will happen. And yes, it finally happened. I woke up, and all the love and joy was gone. All there was left, was my broken heart, my lost soul and my empty head.

I loved this dream. I loved it, because with it, I learned to feel. I learned so much for my life out of this dream, I have never learned in life before and will never do.

In this dream, I imagined how it would be, if I would marry someone. How I would be in the kitchen, making breakfast while my husband gets ready for work. How I prepared dinner for him and me, how I got pregnant and actually got a baby and how I showed my kids to brush their teeth properly and how I painted the walls with them instead of just pictures to hang on the wall.

In this dream, I dried the tears of a friend. I gave a girl something to hold on in her life. I gave her a rescue point, a person to talk to, an anchor. I gave her all my love.

I left my heart in that dream, and woke up heartless.

I don't think I will ever find my heart again. It's lost. Forever.

This is a post for a person, that means more to me than I can describe. 

She's been my sister ever since we met in Kindergarden.  Elena spent every day with me, as my mum was childminder and Elena's mum had to work all day.

Our friends aren't able to say who is who on the picture below, we looked like twins when we were younger, and people still ask us if we are twins.

I can't think of all the stupid things we've already gone through together but it's  been alot. We don't see each other for long periods, she lives a 2 hours drive away from me, and none of us got a driver's license, and by train it is expensive, and we haven't got alot time to visit each other too, but still, even though we see each other maybe once a year, we still have this connection. We understand each other. We have different opinions, understand each other completely though. She is always in my heart. If she feels pain, I do too, if she's happy I can feel random joy. We're special. 

 

Some people are meant to be in your life.  Soulmates :)

making a home

making a home

first step: new sofa.

the sofa

the new fabric

making progress

[picture]

done:)

second step:  installation of the lamp

 with the help of my brother-in-law the lamp was easily istalled and now I can read in the night :) Thank you, Markus!

third step: getting everything in place

[picture]

TV: check

 I am impressed that the plant is still alive. This is the most interesting birthday present I've ever got. I can't kill it. Its impossible. It will live forever...and its my "money-tree", thank you guys!

new room, new books :)

 and we say: hello autumn..

to be continued..

preparing for my exams...

First:  Michael  Kohlhaas - Heinrich von Kleist

  

secondly : Der Prozess - Franz Kafka

I will get my results of my 'Kohlhaas' exam on monday 24th of october, hopefully I got enough points to be happy with it.

The exam on Kafka will be in january, so fingers crossed that I'll study enough until then ;)

London!

It was love at first sight.

The streets, the people, the art, every bit it overwhelming, is making you feel so small, and making you realize how big the world actually is.

picadilly circus

It's amazing how easy it is to show someone how less one life counts for other people, how less other people care if you for example run into a car or fall downstairs while running to get the underground.

 

 

 New Year's Eve

It's scary how hard it is to accept that another person cares for you, when you always had to care for yourself because there was no one but you.

London is something very special to me.

It is funky, loud, big, romantic, trashy, beautiful, confusing.

It is my home.

 Oxford calling...                                                                    Hello Harry!

back in London

King's Cross

 Westminster Abbey :)

This summer was the third time I was in London and I couldn't wait for it! I was so excited, even though I was all alone and by myself. But I didn't care because London and me were having a very special relationship and there didn't have to be anyone else..

 Bembridge, Isle of Wight

 and on my way back home ..

I'll move to England next year in Summer but if it would be possible I would pack my stuff and move there tonight.